For two years I dreaded waking up in the morning and I went to bed almost every night kind of hoping that I wouldn’t but after getting a little sleep for a whole week now I’m starting to feel excited about life again.
One of the biggest reasons I came to Guatemala was to get some sleep. They have the best, stress-free sleep here that you just can’t find in the states.
In the states I fell asleep every night and woke up 4 hours later wondering why I was conscious when I didn’t want to be. It was horrible. Being sleep deprived is like living a nightmare. I couldn’t remember things. I couldn’t make decisions. I couldn’t function. I didn’t care.
Not caring is the worst. You know you have hit rock bottom when you don’t care anymore.
Actually I cared a little. I cared enough to be bothered that I didn’t care but I didn’t care enough to be able to do anything about it.
I think being sleep deprived robbed me of my future and all I could do was lay in bed obsessing about the past. I bet there is a sleep study out there somewhere that would confirm that.
Unfortunately coming to Guatemala didn’t cure my sleep problems like I was hoping it would because two or more of my children and I have been sick the entire time we’ve been here and it wasn’t stomach problems like you would think it would be in Guatemala. We have all been getting ear and sinus infections non-stop.
It was so bad that last week I finally sent my three youngest children back to the states so they could get healthy again. We don’t get sick in Utah!!!
While they are gone I am sleeping. I am sleeping 9 hours a night and taking naps in the afternoons. At this rate I should be all caught up on my sleep in about 6 years.
In the mean time I am already feeling much better. I’m feeling so good that I have started to care again. I took a shower and put on mascara. I went paragliding and started Spanish classes.
All I needed was a little sleep. Think what I could do with a lot of sleep?
I can’t wait to find out.
Did you read the sign?
“Just you in closeness to freedom.”
I love it.