My children and everyone I care about could be gone tomorrow.
All of my money and possessions could disappear next week.
My health could be destroyed two years ago.
I’ve been told that my time is free and I used to believe it but it’s not true. Time is the most valuable thing I have.
As long as I’m alive it’s the only thing I have.
I wrote this last fall when we were moving.
I love walking through the empty rooms of this house that we built and lived in for over 8 years.
I’ve always considered myself a “free-thinker”. I’ve always thought I was different and I’ve spent my whole life doing my own thing and finding my own way. Not for the sake of being different of course but because my mind always thinks there has to be a better way than what is always being done.
I had the weirdest dream the other day. I dreamed that I sold my house and most of my possessions and moved to Guatemala with five children. Who could even imagine such a thing?
For two years I dreaded waking up in the morning and I went to bed almost every night kind of hoping that I wouldn’t but after getting a little sleep for a whole week now I’m starting to feel excited about life again.
I’m brain-damaged. Literally and seriously brain-damaged.
I know many people who want to travel and live out of a backpack for years.
I am NOT one of those people!!!
I’m sorry to have to tell you this but you know all those hopes and dreams and things you want to accomplish some day? You are never going to do them. Continue reading